I recently came across this great interview with Jeff VanVonderen, author of “The Subtle Power of Spiritual Abuse.” Towards the end of the interview, he discusses the recovery process. I’ve found this example to be very true in my life. This especially applies to those who have experienced rejection or disapproval from the HA staff or have been dismissed from the Honor Academy, as I mentioned here.
JEFF: Recovery is never easy for any of us. But I think that recovery from spiritual abuse is in some ways the most difficult of recovery journeys. One reason is that the person who has the greatest potential for helping us recover from spiritual abuse is the person we feel most alienated from.
Let me explain that a bit. When someone gets physically abused, they don’t necessarily distrust the Department of Social Services. The abuser wasn’t acting as a representative of the Department of Social Services when they abused the person. Similarly, when a woman gets abused sexually, she doesn’t necessarily distrust the person from the women’s shelter who offers to be helpful. She may distrust men in general, but the agency that is designed specifically to help is not necessarily a problem. The abuser was not acting as a representative of the agency designed to help abused people. So the woman who has been abused is not likely to think, If I go to the people who are from the agency that is designed to help me, I’m going to get hurt even worse. In the case of spiritual abuse, however, there is always a major problem with the “agency” that is specifically “designed” to be helpful: God. The fear is that if you go to God, you will get hurt even worse than you have already been hurt. Spiritual abuse always does damage to our relationship with God. It’s the worst. It’s a wound of the spirit. It’s a wound right down at the core of who we are.
INTERVIEWER: If you experience an abuser as acting on behalf of God, or speaking for God, or acting as an agent of God, you are really stuck.
JEFF: Abuse always happens in a relationship. And in the case of spiritual abuse, the abuse happens in the context of relationships where someone is in the role of representing God. Later, when the abuse has come to an end and we are looking for healthier relationships in which to recover, we may find other people—even people who may actually be faithfully representing God—but it will be difficult for us to trust in those relationships, difficult to invest again in relationships and difficult to relax.
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I have to comment on this post because one thing that I have just recently discovered about myself is that while growing up I had made my parents very much God-like in my life because I was raised a strict Presb.
I then went to TM were I made them very much God-like because I was looking for answers to live a life for Christ.
I went to a Christian college after TM and and made my teachers and staff God-like in my life.
THen I got married and guess what?! Made my husband God-like. I truly believe that is how I experienced spiritual abuse at TM because no one was willing to show an example of weakness and humility. They were to busy being God-like role models.
April, weakness wasn’t allowed at TM. If you were weak in any way you were confronted for not trying hard enough, not giving 110%, etc. Despite that we ALL have weaknesses.
Wow, this is so true.