It is a devastating thing to feel that God has failed you. That the promises you trusted Him to keep turned to ashes in front of your eyes. That the prayers you so desperately prayed go unanswered. That the purpose, destiny, calling, whatever – hasn’t come to pass.
When many of the things I was taught at Teen Mania turned out not to be true, I was disillusioned and despondent. I felt betrayed by God. It’s a hard, lonely place to be.
But, ultimately, it’s a good place because it frees us from our false ideas of who God is and what He promises us. It dislodges the unhealthy Santa Claus god and replaces it with a real God. A God who doesn’t promise that everything will work out how we want it to, who hurts with us during hard times and carries us through everything. Who doesn’t have a hyper-spiritual proof text answer for everything.
He just calls us to trust and rest in Him instead of trying to figure it all out.