How many of you had/have Dave Hasz living in your head?
It’s amazing to me how even after leaving the Honor Academy, his influence remains so strong in our lives.
For YEARS, I lived with his continual judgment and disapproval in the back of my mind. I was never good enough to meet his standards or gain his approval. No matter what I was doing, a subtle measuring stick in the back of my mind told me how Dave Hasz felt about what I was doing.
Pretty sick, isn’t it?
Then, finally, one day I was reading Colossians 2 and the the power of it hit me so hard it firmly dislodged the tiny Dave Hasz living in my head.
Therefore do not let anyone judge you by what you eat or drink, or with regard to a religious festival, a New Moon celebration or a Sabbath day. These are a shadow of the things that were to come; the reality, however, is found in Christ.
Since you died with Christ to the elemental spiritual forces of this world, why, as though you still belonged to the world, do you submit to its rules: “Do not handle! Do not taste! Do not touch!”? These rules, which have to do with things that are all destined to perish with use, are based on merely human commands and teachings. Such regulations indeed have an appearance of wisdom, with their self-imposed worship, their false humility and their harsh treatment of the body, but they lack any value in restraining sensual indulgence. (Excerpt from Col. 2)
I was living in a reality defined by Dave Hasz, not the reality defined by God. Dave made a list of rules, behaviors and “character traits” that a good Christian should live up to. I was living my life confined by that paradigm. But, using this passage of Scripture, God set me free to live in HIS reality.
I still remember the shock of the new freedom I found that day. You mean nobody has the right to judge me based on external religious actions and rules!? Those rules aren’t even real – the only thing that is real is Jesus!
New paradigm!
2 comments:
You know I have been really thinking about this and my knee jerk reaction was I chose to leave early enough that I didn’t think I had a DH in my head, but then I started cooking lunch. When I did It started coming to me that some of the most hidden areas that I experience this (and it might not be Dave himself but it certainly was a theme at TM), I am so bad about letting my partner cook, he’s an amazing cook. I’m so bad at letting him help in so many ways because I see those areas as things I am suppose to do. I actually feel like I’m being less of a good spouse when he takes over doing some of the parts that I am “suppose” to do. I hate that I feel so strongly about gender roles these days. I hate that I feel that I shouldn’t speak up when I have an opinion opposite my partners. I most certainly have no trouble doing so to others so for a long while I had no idea why I couldn’t with him. I re-read this post a few times and intend on doing so again. Thank you for this it was freeing to me in a way I didn’t expect.
LOctober 27, 2010 11:59 AM
Anon 12 said…
“I was raised to sense what someone wanted me to be and be that kind of person. It took me a long time not to judge myself through someone else’s eyes.” Sally Field
I’m still working on this. At least I recognize it now. I don’t know what’s more frustrating, having knowledge or not having knowledge. After exercising for years the wrong way and then changing technique can be aggravating. I can see why so many want to stay the same. The truth will set us free.October 28, 2010 7:19 AM